it has been far too long since ive posted in this thing. so here it goes, a summary of my summer.

It started out alright. I had a week and a half all to myself before I actually started working. It was nice being able to sleep in. I didnt do anything productive. I read, drove around aimlessly, and slept. Then work started. Work is dull and boring and nothing exciting ever happens! It is too mono-tone for me. Luckly it is only a summer job and not a permanent one. This is why being a doctor will be fun... you can expect something different every day.

Soooo summer went on, I hung out with mary, michelle, and chrissy a few times. Then I had my dream team retreat. That was pretty fun. Although, I def felt like I was getting too old for it. The kids were so young! Even the other counselors were so young! I mean, I've only been through a year of college, and yet i feel so ooooold! I think i've changed a lot.

Then summer went on again. Chrissy left me to go to San fran. rah. She was there forever. Then the hp 7 book came out, but i couldnt read it b/c i didnt have a copy. I was gonna get Kathryn's, but then I had to go to camp.

Camp was amazing. MADD camp. It just keeps getting better every year. I have to say, that was the only week during the summer where I felt perfectly content with my life and I didnt miss my college or home friends. If i could, I'd stay at camp forever. I love those people.

So, once camp was over, I got the hp 7 book from kathryn and started reading it. I was done within a week. less actually. I think I could have read faster, but I had work and other stuff to do.

And then the following weeks were littered with camp reunions. They were all a lot of fun. I'm actually going to one on sunday! woot woot! I'm really gonna miss those people.

But this saturday I get to see more friends! kathryn and chrissy and lila and maybe erin and mary! oh boy! It should be lots of fun. Although, I cant sleep over. My mommy wants me home and in my own bed.

I also started packing last night. I had a lot of stuff to go through, but I think im finally organized. For the most part. I've still got plenty of work to do.

Today is my last day of work. I'm not gonna miss this job. Although, i may come back and work here next summer. Hey, its good pay, and im always looking for a job. you cant blame me. Tonight, my family and I are going out to dinner in celebration of my birthday, which was Wednesday, Aug 15th. We're also going to temple. It will probably be the last time in a loooong time where my whole family will go out together. I will miss them.

oo, and i also had a mini-summer romance after camp which lasted about a weekend. And I expect much more boy drama once I go back to siena... i have some unfinished business.

and well, thats my life as of right now. Its good. I've got many friends who clearly love me. And my family is amazing. I had a good job over the summer. I'm going back to school to challange myself for another semester.

.... life is good. really good. i am thankful.

EDIT TO THE PREVIOUS POST:

due to my lack of attentiveness, there has been a mistake made in the previous post. the high school people of which i speak of are to be taken as the general high school crowd. there are certain people who are excluded from these generalities and should not take offense to anything said.

so, i know how i said i was all excited to go back to school... and i still am, but now im feeling guilty about it. i mean, since when do kids say they actually want to go back to school?? i guess the only reason why i want to go back is b/c i'll be with friends and away from family. but, i feel ashamed to say it sometimes. i mean, so many other ppl are like, summer is awesome! i never want to go back! and im the complete opposite! but then again, maybe that is a good thing... wanting to go back to school.

anyway, i miss my college friends. its been far too long since ive seen some of them. and i dont talk to most of them on a regular basis. i never call anyone, cuz, well i just dont. and sometimes i'll comment on someone's facebook. but i miss hanging out w/ them. its just not the same. i'm so much closer w/ my college friends than i am w/ friends in ct for the most part. i also feel like im much more appreciated and wanted at college. i guess a clean slate and new beginning was just what i needed.

but why is that? why did i feel so rejected in high school, and so accepted in college? I havent changed that much. is it because the people are just different? or perhaps the people at college are still new, and perhaps with time will falter. but i would think if that was true, i'd already be friend-less, which i clearly am not.

so, ive decided to blame it all on the ppl in high school. they just weren't like me. i mean, sure, they were all nice people and all, but they just didnt understand me. i'm so glad that stage of my life is over. life in general is just so much more enjoyable now. yipeeee!

it almost feels like a sin... the fact that my life has been pretty blessed this past year.

so all in all, thank you high school for making me who i am today, and thank you college for accepting me for who i am.

ps, what do you guys think of the new layout? i got bored w/ my old one.

and after reading a few simple pages, my mindset has been completely altered.

i now find myself afraid, and very nervous. and i havent been this way in a long time. and i dont like it. and now suddenly i dont know what to do anymore. im terrified! so now i think i should just go into hiding and avoid the world.

yes, that sounds good to me... i shall go hide in a cave in the woods. no, wait, too many bugs. I shall hide in one of the dorms at siena. I'll steal the key and live there. I'll make spooky ghost noises so everyone thinks the room is haunted and they'll leave me alone. I'll soon become the resident ghost... only living.

look for me in the newspapers!

sooooo its official... i am now part of the training team for the 2007 SCC Diversity Dream Team Retreat! woot woot!

I was a student participant my sophomore year of high school, then was promoted to counselor for the past two years, and now, im a part of the training team! looks like im moving up in this world!

: )

im really looking forward to that weekend

rah. so, today i was suppose to host an accepted amc student. she came to my first two classes... then she was suppose to go to chem w/ another girl, and then i'd get her back and we'd do something for the night. but... apparently she thought someone else would make a better friend. i guess she wanted to go out to the club tonight, so she's going with a few other people. i guess im a bit offended... but hey, one less thing for me to worry about.

so now i have a whole afternoon free. but idk what to do with my time. i have sooooooo much hw to do! but at the same time, i havent gone to the gym in over two weeks! im getting fat!

sooo question of the day:

gym? or hw?

gym?... hw?... gym?... hw?... gym?... hw?... gym?... hw?.... yeah well u get the picture

double rah!

rah! for homework

last night i went to the movies to watch epic movie. it was... not worth $10.

they made fun of harry potter and the cronicles of narnia. a lot.

end of story

i hate boys... they're too much of a hassle to try and figure out

rah!

merry christmas folks! and happy holidays!

im homeeeee!

so call me

study study study study study study



... this is me not studying and instead trying to find things that will distract me


yay... i return to ct on tuesday!!

I dont feel like doing work!


RAH!.... RAH RAH RAHHHHHHH!


::hatred towards my chem professor::

and just one more... RRRRAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!

i have so much work to do... and yet i insist on surfing the web instead of actually doing it. hm...

which is probably a bad idea b/c i have a HUGE chem test tomorrow which i should be studying for.

... and now, my little break is over.

... just thought i'd let you guys know

i successfully embarrased myself fully yesterday as i walked into our dining hall dressed as a pirate. nobody here at siena dresses up on halloween, unless you're actually going out clubbing or something. i blame this mostly on the fact that all the costumes are incredibly slutty and are inappropriate for dining. And even though i knew the majority of the population would not be dressed, i still did it. wheeee!

and now back to work...

I am no longer sure about the whole greg situation...

he hasn't really talked to me since mid-week. granted, this may be because of the million tests we've had due to being a biology major, but still. I figured when the weekend came along, i could better judge what the future may hold. but no, of course, i guess he studied the wrong material and did bad and is now all depressed about it on top of being sick. He pretty much isolated himself and didnt say more that two words. He answered all questions with one or two words.

RAH! tonight has been uber crappy. I cant wait until next week is over... then i'll be done w/ all my freaking tests!

hm... maybe tomorrow will be a better day. but, i just hate it when one of my friends is so depressed like that... cuz then im always worried about them and cant enjoy myself. Tonight had potential to be good....

anyway, im done venting.

ta ta!

Today, i froze my butt off standing outside in the cold from 4:30 to 7....

my limbs were numb for a good two hours after going inside.

We put out 1500 paper bags outside w/ candles in them to represent the soldiers in iraq. Each candle represented like 400+ soldiers. They were all spread out in the quad... it was really purdy. it reminded me of the relay for life. hm... i remember sitting on the bleachers with... chris and chrissy i blelieve, singing songs at the ppl still walking.

and now, i shall study for my calc test... wheeeee!


ps... the greg situation isnt going anywhere... nothing has happened in the last few days

last night...

i ate yogurt with a fork.

wheeeee!

wheeee! life is good.

seriously dude... ive been thinking, and my life is pretty sweet. i'm doing okay in all my classes. and i have a great group of friends. and...idk, im just happy. Granted this is partially because this isnt a stressful week for me as far as school goes.

but anyway... ive decided boys are hard to read. and they're a waste of my time. so plan as of right now: stay single forever... or at least until i decide i want to get married.

oooooooh! my cd player broke.. and i dont have an ipod... which means i am musicless in the library... totally not acceptable. idk how i'll get any work done! eeeeek!

and as of right now, i wont be going to india over winter break. ::tear:: And i was really pumped for it too. I thought i was actually going back... after 6 freakin years! more than 6 actually. hm.... life is hard.

and i still havent watched that house episode. the one with the autistsic kid. (sp?) my roomie said i could download it. perhaps that is what i shall do. why is it not on during the weeeeek! stupid play-offs. although i do enjoy a good baseball game.

the mets lost! rah! against the cardinals! they had a great game on... sunday? it was 11 to who cares! they won! and then today, they lost it... 2-4 cardinals. booooo! jess is gonna be upset.

and i went to the gym today again! i went yesterday too. I'm trying to be healthy. i need to work on my abs though...

and now, i need to do my bio hw..


i miss my ct friends!!!!!!! so come visit me!

It's been a while since I've posted... and the only excuse I can provide is that I'm a bio major. Yes. It's true. Homework owns my life.

but on the flip side... im having a blast here at college.

This weekend, my friends and I went to a gay bar on friday. yes... a gay bar. We sang and danced and had a jolly 'ol time.

And... well, more updates later... I have more homework to do.

hello everybody

sooo, second weekend of college...

last night i went to landing zone, a local bar/club. It was moderately okay. i enjoyed the dancing, i did not however enjoy the mass of drunk people. and today, i woke to find myself ill. I have a cold which has caused me to feel miserable.

rah

and i miss emt boy

... i just wanna sleep

ahaha.... this weekend has been awesome so far. so, yesterday, my friends and i played tag in the quad at 12 at night, and tonight, we chilled in the laundry room as the guys washed their clothes. not to mention we watched a few movies in between. i'm so glad i found a bunch of kids who dont get wasted during weekends like all the other freshman. seriously... im happy here at siena... best choice i ever made.

but i do miss you guys. no chrissy snark... no pirate dance... the list goes on.